So back when I was pregnant, and I was expressing my fear of losing the weight post-baby, my family and friends did their best to keep me optimistic by telling me, “Oh, you are so active! That weight will just come right on off.”
That, friends, was a lie. Genetics are against me.
I worked my tail off losing the weight before and I knew it would take that same feverish diligence for me to do it again. However, this time around, I don’t have 2-3 hours each night to spend at a gym and I don’t have 1-2 hours to prepare a meal, eat, and clean up. I am also at a new job, where my commute is much longer, drastically cutting into my exercise time at night. Oh, and I have a baby now…which, in itself, changes EVERYTHING. I know I have mentioned at least a dozen times how he *still* doesn’t sleep at night. These sleepless nights are putting me in this vicious cycle of being tired, half-assing my runs/workouts, and going through the motions of the day like a total zombie. I thought that at some point I would just get used to it, but no luck so far.
Needless to say, with all of these chips stacked against me, the weight isn’t falling off.
I am trying so desperately to stick to my #c210k running plan. I have been sticking to it, but the enthusiasm just is not there. It has started to feel like an obligation, and I hate that. I feel like I am in such a losery rut and I need to bust out of it. Like yesterday. For me, running was most fun when I felt like I was really, really pushing myself in every race…finishing with times I was proud of, feeling strong and feeling that “good burn” in my legs. I am just not there anymore and I want to be there so badly.
My legs are not as strong as they used to be. Pregnancy packed on serious weight on my thighs and I now have more junk in the trunk than I ever have in my whole life. When I look in the mirror I think I look alright, but then I see myself in photos and I **CRINGE**.
In addition to regular photos, my recent race photos completely make me shudder. I know no one looks “pretty” while they are running, but I am talking about my form. My whole body is off. No wonder running feels wonky, my form is TERRIBLE. And I know exactly what it is going to take to correct my form…stronger legs and a stronger core.
I can keep running and running and running, but I will never be where I want to be without stepping back and focusing on my foundations. Sadly, I am not one of those naturally lean people where just running will get me back into shape.
Taking this all into account, I decided I needed something that met the following criteria:
- FUN. If it isn’t fun, I won’t do it.
- A plan with proven results.
- Not extensively time consuming.
What did I come up with? TurboFire and Shakeology.
I heard about this program when I was pregnant and I remember telling my husband then, “I need this! I want to do this after I have the baby!!” The infomercials (yes, infomercials) made it look so fun and it looked like a program that I could totally get down with. However, like most of these programs, it was expensive, so I didn’t order it.
Now I have realized that what I am doing isn’t working and I need the help.
Wanting to make sure this program was the right fit for me, I started doing my research. I started with YouTube. I watched about a million videos and I felt like I related to every single woman in every single video. The majority of these women are moms who, after having children, felt like they couldn’t get in the groove again. One lady’s video really resonated with me. After being unable to lose the weight, she stopped wearing cute clothes, stopped putting on make-up, and stopped caring much about her appearance. Ladies and gentlemen, this is what I have turned into. Watching this video made me cry. I immediately thought, “If she can do it, I CAN DO IT. I just have to want it bad enough.”
I WANT IT BAD ENOUGH.
This was one of my favorite videos…made by a fellow Katie…
After talking it over with my husband, I broke down and I ordered the combo pack with the TurboFire exercise program and the Shakeology nutritional supplement. And now I am like a kid in a candy store waiting to get started! At this moment it is on the FedEx delivery truck making its way to my house and I simply cannot wait to get home and get started on it tonight! I have never been this excited about starting a new program EVER.
So, for now, I’m going to cut my running down to one to two times per week (possibly throwing in a third run on the weekend if one of my friends wants to get together) and focus on dropping pounds and losing inches.
FOR ME, BEING A SUCCESSFUL RUNNER MEANS BEATING THE MENTAL BLOCKAGE.
I know that if I can just start getting some of the inches off, I will feel so much more confident in my running clothes and I will want to run more…and harder and faster. I know to some people this may sound completely ludicrous, but this is how my brain operates. I need to do whatever it takes for me to regain my confidence. I am confident that TurboFire, coupled with a healthy diet, will show me some results.
And before I move on, let me just say this…I KNOW I AM NOT FAT. I am not going to sit here and say, “Oh, I’m so fat. Woe is me.” because I know I am not fat. But I AM soft…and squisy…and I hate it. I am not looking to get all beefy and lean like Jillian Michaels (who, by the way, kind of scares me). However, that doesn’t mean that I can’t be a better version of me…and I am ready for it.
In addition to getting down with TurboFire, I have also decided that I need to take better care of my skin. Since Baby Key was born, my skin has been broken out and I look like I have the face of a teenager. Thanks A LOT, hormones. I have tried everything, even worked with a dermatologist, and nothing seems to be working. This, coupled with the weight I cannot seem to lose, has really been doing a number on me. I feel like I am withdrawing socially and I avoid every camera that I see. This is SO unlike me.
To help me get control over the skin issues, I ordered Proactiv. I resisted this for SO long, but again, after reading about it and seeing undeniable results with others’ skin, I decided to order it. It arrived last week and I used it for this first time this morning. We will see how this goes.
With both the TurboFire/Shakeology and Proactiv systems, I will be taking before photos and recording before measurements (in regards to the TurboFire). At the end of the program, or possibly at milestones along the way, I will post photos, videos, and new measurements, keeping you updated on my progress. I know that posting the “before” photos will be mortifying because I know what I look like now, but I am hoping that my “after” photos will be so amazing that I will not even care.
I know it sounds like I have become the 1 (800) Number As Seen On TV Queen, but I promise you that I have not been paid to endorse or promote these programs. These programs were paid for 100% out of my own pocket and the future results and comments on the program (whatever they may be) are completely my own.
Have you ever looked in the mirror and said, “This has got to change NOW”? What did you do? What was your tipping point?